A never ending circle began to take place.  No control over shame and guilt brought in anger and frustration.

Combining these feelings and not having any control over them built anxiety.  Stories of the past were either something I very much missed or tried to erase.  Sweep under the rug and hope no one ever lifts it.

I hated to feel anything.  Any feeling took a life of it's own.  Many if not all decisions of life were then made to not feel that which was overwhelming to me.  A cage was slowly being built.

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